Aaron Ybarra, the accused mass shooter at Seattle Pacific University, chose the small Christian college because he was unfamiliar with it. “I can see that University of Washington and Seattle University represent Seattle more,” he wrote in his journal, released Tuesday evening. “I didn’t want to have to attack my own city.”

The 26-year-old Mountlake Terrace wrote about his failure to benefit from therapy, how he wanted revenge on people who humiliated him, and how his actions would hurt his family “but it must be done.”

Two days before the shooting, Ybarra wrote about his love for his family and friends. “Everybody else in the world, I just want to blow their faces out with a 12-gauge shotgun blast!” he wrote. Police recovered a shotgun, dozens of shells, and a hunting knife from Ybarra after a student monitor tackled and subdued him.

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